I struggle day in and day out. I have often wondered if others struggle as much as I do? Why do we choose to hold these things from people. By things I mean the little secrets that we have in our lives that if some one found out about them it would be the end of your life. Why do we struggle to tell people our close friends about them? If we don't do that, does it show that we really trust and care for them? Do we not want to be real and let our friends even our soul mates to know the real you and not a fake perception of who you are? Is that true friendship or our we selling our relationships short? I guess with honesty comes pain, humility, and openness. It seems that those are some things that I have ran from and running from those have left me hurt, bitter, and confused. It was not until I confessed those secrets, those unspoken sins, to God and my closest friend that I found peace, healing, and most of all complete forgiveness. It has been quiet a long time since I have felt that kind of forgiveness. I think we fail ourselves when we do not confess to a friend what we have been doing. Its hard to do but you feel completely free. God gives your friends to you for a reason. They are not there for a good time only but for an accountability.





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